before those albums

i started making music a long time ago, since i was very young, since i started playing any instrument at all, i always liked doodling the instrument to see if formed anything interested, and i started learning what things did better with others, and was very interesting to me, i always loved creating things, and creating music was the most fun thing to me, only losing to listening to music itself, so i started making abstract and abrasive compositions, very inspired by noise, grunge and punk, very simplistic, only instrumental, and very.... not so good in itself, but beforee that, i made an channel with my best friend, called pastel de feijão, that channel was more of an gaming channel we made to be funny and poorly edited, but then, i had the brilliant idea to sarcastically create rap and post it on youtube, to make fun of trap maybe? i dunno, but i wanted to do it, so i did my first launched music with my friend in a ludical way, it was... funny i think, at least to the both of us, and we have those songs fondly in our memory, during that same period of time, i was making lots of songs, so i decided to make an soundcloud and post some of it, so i did, and my first album ever was created, called trovador elétrico, the name was inspired by renato russo (the idea was that was only a guitar, and "trovador" is a guy who plays a acoustic guitar, and i played an eletric guitar, makes sense????) the album in itself is not good, but was my first ever try to show some serious creation of mine to people, if u search trovador eletrico in soundcloud, probably you will find the album and my account, that has some songs i guess, anyway, after that, i created a youtube channel and started to upload some albums there during 2020/2021, all of this stuff is lost cuz i deleted all of them, some albums and songs werent exactly bad, but due to some things i deleted them, but i did i think 6 albums and tons of music in this channel, my first compositions were very simple but were the first tries of me trying to create music, during that time, i had an band with a school friend, we made some songs together and we did mostly covers of bands i liked, it was something more of an hobby than of something serious, since we never played outside his house, but he was the first person in my life i liked to play together... and until the time im writing this is the only person i really enjoyed composing and playing together, anyway, those were my first compositions during 2020/2021

during one year, i stopped making music due to several problems i had in my life on that moment, i was not artistically stagnated, but i wasnt making music at all, and then, in the half of 2022, i started composing again, and in this strange time period, i started wanting to be a little more elaborate, so i started making songs that were a little more worked out and started messing with DAWs and music production, and with these knowledge and creativy, i made my first two albums, and i will talk about them now

desconforto EP

the name means discomfort, translated from portuguese, because of a very specific reason, you see, for most of my life i was in very uncomfortable positions, positions that because of several reasons, my senses would be attacked and violated, but this specific time was probably one of the worst times of this awful torture, mostly because i was fighting it, and because of several things that was happening at the time, i named my first EP as rony as desconforto, to symbolize and express this feeling into music, and this feeling, i know a lot of people feel when they hear this EP, its not great or good, but its definitely raw, the album cover was taken from a junji ito collection that i read at the time, and this image brought me so much discomfort that i wanted to put as the album cover, talking about the music in itself, a lot of material was made during this period, and i think i made this EP in a day, or better, in an single afternoon, all in audacity, i still used my notebook mic so the audio is loud and glitched, everything i made in this probably was my first try on music production ever, and was my first try playing piano and combining piano and guitar, or using synths and such, anyway, there is a curiosity though, there is a bonus song if u download the album via bandcamp, anyways, all of this settles ground for my next topic, for my next album songs for the mentally ill

songs for the mentally ill

so, why i took seven months to release this album if all the songs were made during late 2022 and april 2023? for a very simple reason, in april 2023, happened something very drastic to me, and this moment was a very changing point in my life, so this album is like a collection of songs before this changing point in my life, and the name is mostly because of how the songs are made and how raw and chaotic everything is, but, i regret something, i really shared the album a lot, and i treated this as my "first real music release", when to be sincere, its not, its songs that i know a lot of people wont like or understand and has very bad production and general, its something that i didnt wanted to be how people first see my art, so i took off of spotify and only let on my bandcamp to people hear, i feel sometimes a little embarassed by this album, not ashamed, just its something so personal and important to me and... i kinda fucked up everything sharing a lot to people see.. anyway, im glad no one remembers it now... i dont wanna talk about the music, and of course, its cover was made by a very great friend of mine, i just went to her notebook and took a pic of a drawing that i thought would be beautiful to be the album cover, thats about it

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